Here, pending down my thoughts that i NEVER wanted to do . For all i wish that this was just another nightmare that i always had . Meeting you in our Band NCO camp 32nd'07 camp, going to my 1st band concert at SCH . Got to see your brother for the first time , and you wearing one of your best outfit i ever seen . Was really touched that you came that night . Then i had to go overseas, planned a surprise gift for you even though im not in spore , and it went smoothly . Follow on was morning an night greetings daily .08Jan07, receive part of the lyrics from 'Never Be Replaced'. 1st month , you send me 'Wo Ke Yi' lyrics , felt a sense of great security . Remembering that there was a time before Valentine's Day. You said that you cannot be a irresponsible leader, cannot make the teachers think that they have chosen the wrong leader etc etc. I understood you. 'Without band , for me to become bm . I would not have the chance to know you .' Sounds familiar? Was actually sent by you . Most surprisingly thing occur to me is that i actually bought a valentine gift for my love one the first time . lol . Did it with alot of work though . 1 month of planning, 1 week of 'DIY' on it myself . Though it was kinda plain , but it was my first time .
Next day, introduced me a song named 'Super No.1 - Genie' . Quoted lyrics and sent to me . Touched again . I was a believer of fate . Until you came to tell me that i cant always rely on fate . I change my thinking since then .

Places that I will always remember , Serangoon , Hougang , Fajar , Lot 1 , KBox , Pool , Ang Mo Kio , Toa Payoh Bugis Village , Marina Square , Esplanade , Swensens , White Clarinet , The Catahay , PS Kopitiam , PS Yamaha Music School , PS Daiso , E-Dictionary Creative , Blossomz , NCO Camp , Oreo Cheesecake , and many. Things I will not forget , Oreo Cheesecake , Chinese E-Dictionary , Couple T-Shirt from NewBie , chosen long sleeve by you at Far East by NewBie , 3 Movies in the same week , KBOx introduced by you at Cineleisure, currently hooked , bai pattern of you at Pool time , hate arcade , swensens earthquake 1 month eat 2 times .

Ai De Zhun Xun Lu , at first i did not like it as it sounds wierd . But after much persuation from Jing Kai , love it till now . Wanted to K again , no more chance now .

Exams was nearing so there was much good luck sms and encouragement between us . My 12 point ? (got sweetheart to push u ma:)) nope not anymore now .

No more floods from you through any possible methods you can find . No more hugs, kisses, bites etc etc. There was a period of time when I was very sick , did not have voice to even speak to you on the phone . Was very worried as I could not make time for you .

A sentence I will never forget , (...unless he don wan me den i jiu find other lao gong lo...) hmmm , pondering to myself . And i asked you whether you will patch if I break with you , you told me that you will work on it but if its too long and you know its impossible and nothing can be done , you just wanted me to be happy and not a burden to me . I am not sure if that applies to me now .
_Promise me that you will not leave me de... Can? Bu yao li kai wo ... Ke yi ma?
_I don wan u to leave me neither do i wan to leave my dear , I wanna be wif you forever .

Then , quarrels started to occur between us . There was a time that i really didnt know what to do . I went to ask Hui Teng , Jing Kai , Mei Eng for advices , and even requested Hui Teng to help me look after you and tell me your status in school , requested Mei Eng to call and sms you to talk to you and getting advices from Jing Kai . I tried all methods to save out relationship , but to no avail , it didint went in the same way we planned for .

Chinese O levels was coming , tried to made some communication between us through sms . Was scared to call you as I did not want your disturb your study time and your parents nagging at you since it was exam time .


Just finish reading all the past messages that she send me . Forcing myself to delete the memories that we had together once before .

_Promise me that you will not leave me de... Can? Bu yao li kai wo ... Ke yi ma?

_...im willin to share ur happiness, unhappiness, angryness, sadness and sorrows wif u, im willin to lent u my ears and listen to u . i really love you . i love ur everything .

_...though it is like onli a few months but we hab been through alot le...

_Na me wen du, ni de wen du. Ru guo you tian chang di jiu, you duo yao yuan, rang wo kan jian. Yue shi xing fu yue hai pa, pa ta hui jie shu, yue yong bao, que yue shi gu du, mei ren liao jie de ji mo, wo zi ji zhao gu. Bu xiang rang fa xian wo, ni nuan de jiao bu, wo nu li gen shang ni de shu du. Ru guo neng yong you yi miao, you duo xing ku, wo yuan fu chu.

_...You jump i jump... You die i die... I pei you till the end...

_...N i wish to walk the journey of us together and forever:) you made me believe in love.And trust u.because of u i stand up and learnt how to love again. as long as our love are strong i trust n believe tat we can be together de.Let us jia you and work hard together lub u!...

_Baby i love you and i'll nev let u go :)


*Baby i love u and i'll nev let u go..and i promise u tat u will nev be replace...i love you, yes i do, i will be wif u as long as u wan me to..until the end of time..from the day i met you,i noe we will be together..and now i noe i wanna be wif u forever.. Muacksss!

_...hardest goodbye , we stil can always look forward to our favourite hello ...

_Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you was beyond my control..

_...lao gong de bao bao gib me shoo much warmt...

_Den i will find all the good doctors to help to cure you:) I will stay wif you forever to take care of you de..

1 last thing , that night after the concert , when i left you to walk to the MRT station alone , i boarded my parents car . And thought to myself that I made a terrible mistake to leave you and should fetch you to the MRT instead . And so i sms you whether you will be ok . You said that you understand and wont mind . That time I was caught in between because I remembered that you do not like to meet my parents . So I did not dare to ask you to join us at first . And I really thought that you would understand and wont mind , but at least now i know what your heart is feeling . I dont know what happen to you but , since you made this decision , I cant say anything more .

Your sms on 29/5/07 2209hrs
'Zhi Jian' type wrongly, you type 'Zhi Liao' de 'Zhi' .