Dear most-awesomely-diary,

It's been so long since I've talked to you! Hope you ain't rusting and wasting bandwidth on blogger.com! Sigh* Today was a terrible day for me =( but also a happy one =) sounds contradicting yeah? Nah, it all started out when I tried to sync my iPhone with the computer. I tried syncing the application and BOOMZ! All my application can't startup! WTF? and I spent 2 hrs fixing it =.= was very pissed. After that pathetic 2 hours, all the paid apps can't be started, only the free ones. Now i need to find Pauline and Amelia for help again! So paiseh can. 2nd thing that pisses me off today was it was fcuking raining when I need to go for tuition! WTF?! Spent $15 on cab fair. WTF. Next week i shall go on a diet man. So fcuking no money.

After tuition was a little better because I was meeting hunny! YAY YAY! Called and text her, no reply. She told me her both phones spoiled. So I'm not sure whether she received my texts or call at all. I'm so disappointing feeling you know. Like sometime I just wanna talk to her, and when I call her or text her, there's no reply. Stupid phones. Anyway, my feelings was greatly raised when she said she could meet me at Paya Lebar MRT for dinner than back home. Than came the next horror. SO SO SO coincidentally, her devilish auntie came home and KPKB at her. So we both became a victim of that ... sigh* She had to pack her room before she can leave the house, and I on the hand, had to wait for her at Paya Lebar MRT for 1 hour staring into nothing. It's just a 15 min bus ride I thought, but than, that ... made unnecessary trouble for the both of us. sigh* was having a severe gastric pain because i rushed down from temp and had not eaten anything since ever. Mood was totally off, the pain was exacerbating.

Well she finally arrived! My mood was down, hers, was worse than mine. Her tone was "want-to-fight" tone when she spoke to me. Heart broke. Naturally, it made me pissed after a few of her "challenging" sentences. Walked to KFC, didn't want to eat anything because wasn't really feeling too good on having a gastric with KFC?! Anyway, she was still furious and gave me the look =( worse of all, she called me to go home =( heart broke x99, uncontrollably, shed a few tears. She asked me whether I got thing to say to her, obviously I had to say no. I didn't want to hurt her heart, and of course it's just the ... fault! It isn't our fault! Than she scolded me saying she fcuking don't need to deserve this. I was devastated. I was disappointed and heart broke again. To her, i seldom even say the word fuck in her face when we talked, because I feel it's ... very degrading, disrespectful to her. When other people say about my gf that she is fcuking this, fcuking that, I make sure he'll go home not recognizing his own father. What more should I even use the word fuck to my gf? When I know if I ever use that word, I would hurt her deeply, especially to the only girl I love the most in this world.

But in everything, I knew she had a bad day too. I can't blamed her for whatever she said right diary? She's the girl I love for god sake! She was awesome, bought KFC for me! Was kinda happy, but I HATE DRUMS AND BREASTS, and KFC gave me drums and breasts. WTF KFC?! Must you play me you SOB! Totally turn off, couldn't even lay my mouth into it. eww. Hunny thought I was giving her attitude, she of course was pissed. I was not in the best mood to hong her as I'm still having shitty gastric while controlling my tears. Than she called me to go home again as I wasn't feeling well. I wanted to say, I've waited for so long just to see you for this few mins, and now you want me to go home. I ... I ... really don't know what is my feeling. Heart break or disappointment. I guessed it's a mixture of both diary. She needed to rush to Suntec as her mum was pestering her. She was getting an MacBook =) felt happy for her! finally she could upgrade her all-so-old macbook. We took a cab to Suntec, splitted ways. I went to IT fair alone, saw a few friends though. Walked through all the levels, it's a massive chaos I would say. It's getting bigger and BIGGER every year!  

Had my KFC at the road side alone near the bus stop. My chicken, mash potato and coslaw was indulged in coke. Imagine soggy meat with coke, floating coke above the mash potato, and coke tasting coslaw. Yeah, that's it diary, I bet you wouldn't want to eat it! I wanted to throw, but hey, I won't okay. My hunny bought for me using her own money and she didn't want to claim it from me, means she would have lesser money to spend for herself already. Even her loan from me she didn't have the money to pay back, I cannot waste her effort and money. And so, I ate my dinner. Well, although it wasn't a good day for me, but at least she manged to reach in time and bought her MacBook, it was all worth it =)


and i took a bus home with so many people to my home about 40 mins away. What a day. sigh*