and I told her that saying was easy, but by actually doing it, it's not going to be easy. Well, but than again, after thinking about the conversation I had with her, I thought that whatever she said was actually quite true. I mean, what's the point of looking at the past, when you know, it's impossible to go back to the past again.

My point here is not about being emotional again by thinking of that special someone that was part of your life before, not about wanting to go back to the past to correct a mistake you've done, and not about not wanting to grow up and face life's challenges ahead of you, but it's all about waking up one day, and feeling happy just for the fact that you're actually still alive breathing in this world. Take a pause in your life, take time by looking around yourself, look at the people around you, look at the world around you, who genuinely cares for you, who uses their entire heart to love you, what has change ever since the past till now. Remember, what we have left now, is only the future. Treasure everyone that means something to you, make decisions that you won't regret. Do not care about what other people would think about you, but tell yourself that is the decision the best for yourself? Believe it or not, this world is cruel. There would be many people that would want to bring you down, whether or not you're easily being influenced by them, is really dependent on what your heart really believes in. The entire world, may say that your bestfriend/boyfriend is a fucking bastard, but if you really believe in your heart that he isn't that type of person, you would genuinely still have the trust in him only until you've really seen what he really is. 

For me, my heart is stronger than my mind. I would follow what my heart more than what my mind tells me to do so. Because I know that even I'm hurt in the process, just by knowing that I did not let my heart down, I guess it's all worth it. Life is not all about being rational, being logically, being intelligent, sometimes, it's just all about yourself, your heart.